New me.

I want to go out now ( to my dad's club) heh. :)
Ok, I'm gonna wish everyone NOW. & I'm out for countdown.

On the arrival of 2009, treasure your last few hours/minutes/even seconds to clear up any regrets/ mistakes you had done and welcome the new year without any burden.

WISH YOU ALL HAPPY NEW YEARRRRR! (:

Triumph.

What a unacceptable result, im so dejected..Im really very cheerless. But after marilyn & michelle told me that its okay, & I should try better next time(SPM).

Im having dreadful feelings when i got back my results .Everytime I think of it, my tears roll down my checks by its own & I couldn’t stop it. I’ve cried a lot of time today. This is a tutorial & a example in my life.( I learnt th lesson) I did not bad for my UPSR but, I didn’t actually care of it. I think , its because im still immature. But now,I’m so concern of my knowledge. I just realized that I’m growing up, im growing to be more responsible. Just like, Pey Cheng(and so wat my mom said)told me that I’ve already change.To th better. Not as playful as last time. But still do. LOL. but now, is it to late for me? Is it , if I get bad result this time , I will not graduate & success in my life? I really hope that, teacher gave me th wrong slip & its not my name on it.(pretty absurd) & th truth is, I don’t want to face th fact that I actually get a bad result of what I did. Its also true wat michelle said. She said if u want to get straight A’s like marilyn, u should study very hard & prepare early, but not last minute burning the midnight oil to face the exam tomorrow. She said ‘’ what did u do 6 month before the exam? What did u do when people is studying ? Its true. Im rushing up last minute this year. & I’m lazy,Very indolent this year. & im regretting now.Do I have time somemore? Is this th end of the world? Can I do well next time? Im asking myself when im bathing just now.& im crying like a mad people. I knw its just a waste of tears. & time. I should start a year with my resolutions. & I will make it happen to me. Im feeling better when I saw on a border, in michelle’s office.(working in th triumph)-& the meaning of triumph is achievement .

They wrote there’’ :

‘’* the winner sees problem, whereas the loser sees problems.

* the winner perseveres, whereas the loser give up.

*the winner always has a plan , whereas th loser always has an excuse.

* th winner always says’’ let me try it’’, whereas. Th loser always say ‘’this is not my job, why should I try?’’

I think it’s the same. I will never give up,& I will light up my resolutions & pull up my socks for next year (2009). I knw I will get a better result or maybe a shocking one.

Who Knows ? right? I just need time, effort(most important) & also encouragement.

& here also, I want to say thank you to everyone who wished me/prayed for me & thanks for the concern to me, thanks to my best friends of course.(tiffy)(peycheng) & my sisters. Not to forget, my mom & dad. & thank you for cheering me whenever im sad,especially today.

I kept asking for rewards before I get the results, & I thought i will got a blow in this, but I didn’t knw.. but anyway,I really thanked my father for encouraging me.Even I did not do well in this exam, but he still give me rewards. Which is $$$. I don’t knw why is everyone is happy with my result especially mommy. & also daddy. After all, I don’t feel like getting any rewards.But I still accept if they give. Heh.

I’ve been wasting my time. I've been missing so much since th dawning of 2008. & I don’t want to repeat this anymore. I will blog less start from now onwards. I’ll blog maybe once a month & it will be a long long post.(like this post). Next year gonna be very hectic life for me. Im gonna brush up my studies. So, thank god also, although I did not get a excellent result, but I’m still thankful.& I’m very sorry to those who message me & I didn’t reply. I’ve no mood to reply just now,& im so surprised that you guys still encourage me & so concern to me.(will catch up with you guys)

Im really frustrating just now. But im feeling better now, after writing everything here. That’s why I love blogging. Oh yes, thanks to chang yi ting also, you are so far in italy & u still care for me , to text me.Thank you for cheering me up! You really helps. Heh. Luckily u did not kacang! Heh. ( I don’t think u guys understand, but its okay, she understand is enough).

Okay, I think its enough. Long enough?haha. I knw, its kinda long. Will blog less, maybe one month once? & it will be a long one. So, always check out my blog, my sexy readers.HAHA.

Loves,

Mathilda

Currently listening to ‘’ I hate this part right here’’.

Status : BUSY

ANYTHING JUST TEXT ME !

HUGS & KISSES !

What comes around goes around.

Santa Mathilda. HO HO HO !

Hello sweetie pies.Okay, im still in a christmas mood. ho ho ho ! (lol) i dont knw wat th hell am i doin knw.. i should be sleeping like a big fat pig & wake up early to get th fucking results tomorrow. sweating bullets. Freakin apprehensive. I don't get to sleep well this few days. Kept thinking of my results & the reactions would be when I receive th results. =='' which is actually,a wasting my time.swt much. I've not been bloggin in this couple of day because , im packing all my stuff & also all my books. Marilyn are leaving me next year, so she is gonna give me all her stuff ! hehehe :) But, im gonna miss you.Will blog a long long post after getting my results tomorrow! & stop blogging for awhile.So, don’t miss me. Heh.

Mwa

god loves me. I knw. WWJD?

GOD BLESS ME FOR TOMORROW ! I wish wat I wished !

i hereby wish all PMR candidates a very good luck!

Wwjd?

Loves,

Mathilda

All I want for christmas is you !

CHRISTMAS !

♥A picture paint a thousands of words

Scarlet

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

MARILYN !

Omg, this years' christmas is nothing but pure fun and enjoyment! i enjoyed myself to th max, i guess? heh ! :) okay, im lazy to type. letme upload all th pix.

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE !

Ciao !

New year, New ME !

2009 new year resolution-

x pray everyday
x control calling & crapping
x save a lot of money
x be happy
x study like mad
x don't use th computer too much
x brush up on my english & lit
x plan a good 16th birthday
x save red packet money instead of spending it like straight away
x only go out once a week
x be slow to anger
x not care abt worldly people
x be patient
x dont spend money like nothing

i would be studying everyday. I'm going t use th computer only once a week(which means i will blog only once a week ) and hang out only once a week. i'm going to be very very disciplined.

& now, im clearing my wardrobe, in th middle of th night. heh! I’ve lots of new clothes that hasn't been worn before! Packed all th school books & my stuff. Really exhausting. & there’s something worry with my msn !! wth?! Gotta rest & put my mask now. Will blog a long post soon ! ( & im lazy to type, so make the pictures do some talking.

Ciaos.

❤❤❤

Lets be MERRY ! hohoho !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

MARILYN !!!
hohoho !

HEY THERE !

hey sweetiepies! Sorry for not blogging again. I have been really busy and I'm still going t be busy these 2 weeks!Reached kl yesterday, & its really exhausting ! Going back to ktn tomorrow ! so, im putting mask now & ready to start the party later ! HO !

kay ! th results is coming out on th 30th ! Oh MY GWAD !! so i'm really anticipating for th moment of truth! I'm really very eager t see everyone's faces when they receive their results individually. I mean, i think it's individually right? I doubt it's a group or whatsoever. Anyhow, i'm really raring t go get my results! Whether i failed or passed, i knw i alrdy did whatever i could. Not so much for math/science but for eng/kh/geo i did try my best! & i really wonder if anyone scored straight A's. I was thinking last night, like what my reaction would be when i receive it. Pass: Screaming my lungs out and jumping away like an idiot? Fail: Walking back sadly;almost abt t cry. Well, i don't knw why i was getting ready t fail but i mean, just for th worst. essentically, i have confidence of passing. Yes i do. Ok, sry but i'm just really very concerned right now. I'm like, engulfed with this pesky feeling. To be honest, i had this feeling since a week ago? (laughing out loud) Damn! So whatever th outcome may be for each and everyone of us, i hereby wish all PMR candidates a very good luck!

❤❤❤

hohoho !
MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE !
will upload all th pix when i reach ktn!
wait for my next long post.
mwa.

Let it be.

currently listening to : be with you by akon.

"speaking words of wisdom, let it be." (the beatles)♥
( oh well, i just sang this song just now in red box ) :)

oh yeah, 365 days just ended in a blink of an eye. Time passes really fast. but well, i'm satisfied, 2008 is year that i've learnt hell lot of stuff. & now i guess i should thank each and everyone of you. Here goes, pls be patient. ;)

God: Thank you god for such a fruitful year! I've really learnt a lot and finally know th true colours of many. (tho i'm not supposed to judge) thank you for giving me th oppotunity to learn every now and then. thank you for letting me learn th hard way instead of not learning at all. although i felt that 2008 was really disappointing at times, and tho i had lots of problems, i thank you for being there for me. i know you're always watching me and you'll always whisper in my ears, telling me what's right. I love you, lord.


here goes,

:: tiffy (besties) thank you sweetie, for being there for me no matter what. Eventhough i'm always complaining to you about stuff and repeating things, thank you for putting up with me. Sorry for being annoying, like speaking to you very rudely. You've always been there for me. I really missed those times when you were trying to make me understand & i don't even understand the topic you're talking (LOL).Thank you for sharing our secrets & advicing me.mva mva. We really changed a lot, but that's just th outside yea? We're still th same inside.- xo ! mva mva

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:: Pey cheng aka XDD aka peegy piggy: Thank you bestie, for being there for me too. though we don't hang out like in th past. (everyday) I know that you'll always be there for me, yea? Cause i'm here for you no matter what. thank you for letting me know what true friends are,.. like us! Duh? We're really true to each other and whatever we don't like, we'll definately say it out. And thats what i really appreciate! though we have lots of ups and downs, i want you to know that i'm always here for you ! Well, all i wanna say is im finally back !( u should know what i mean)

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:: Mummy & daddy: thank you for listening to all my problems, like forever? Thank you for advicing me on what i should do. Thanks daddy for wanting to go down to school to 'kill' those enemies of mine! I really appreciate it and though i told you not to go down, i know you're just trying to protect me ya? And thanks mummy for putting up with me when i go mad. Thank you for waking me up and telling me to stop all my nonsense. I love you both very much!
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:: mich, mel, lyn (my beloved sisters): Thank you for advicing me on everything! Though your advices might be really hurting sometimes, i know three of you are just trying to help me and let me know what the world outside is. Thank you for being there for me all th time! Lots of huggggggs and kisses! Mwa!
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:: others (not naming th innocent): thank you for commenting on me cause i'll change and i listen. though some comments are really nasty, i don't mind. It'll help me in th long run. Hah! And thank you for letting me knw what true friends are like, i've learnt alot, seriously. Knowing that if you make a mistake and you apologise, some people might not give a shit and yet, use it against you instead. though i was really upset and 'depressed' in th past, i've learnt and i'm a whole new me. i'm not going t dwell in th past and feel sad. heh! you're not going to put me down anymore and neither am i intimidated by you. ho! Well, i hope you guys would have a great year ahead!

so yeah, i'm sorry if i didn't mention you personally. it'll be too many! alright! Signing offffffffffffffffffff

❤❤❤

mathilda.

will be goin to malacca for few days.so, im not gonna blog. :)
don'tmissme !lalala. hohoho !

Loads & loads of pixx to upload.
check out my next post!

xoxo

Rawr .!

I'm getting those dreadful and antsy feelings when th thought of getting back my results comes to my mind. Fuck this shit, seriously. I'm so fucking anxious that nothing i say could really describe it. i just want t scream into th pillow and quickly get over it. I'm sweating bullets by th minute just thinking of 27th dec. Rawr. ): Ultimately, i just wish someone else could get th result for me instead. (laughing out loud) which is also pretty much absurd.

You Rock!

❤Take care in italy.

Sunshines.

Hi sweethearts. It's 1045am now and i have no idea why i woke up so early. Usually, i would wake up at arnd 12-1. oh well, it's good to wake up early! right? I could’t sleep well last nite.Slept about 4am. Couldn’t sleep without someone beside me. SOBS. I miss marilyn! XO- see you tomorrow! :)

It's an utterly blazing and humid day today.I didn't have th mood , because of the really !$#@$^%# weather! I know i shouldn't be scolding th weather, (sorry) but yeah it's really scorching hot! I feel like i'm going to have a heat stroke or something. LOL. I can't help but to keep myself cool by drinking icy drinks.heh.Im eating red apples now!:) yum! I did my nails again! now it's royal pink pearl. Love it to bits!oh yea, mommy told me that she would buy me a new lappy!heeeeheee.

Me & MOMMY

::Mathilda, im gonna buy you a lap top. Which one you want?

::Shocked! Huh? Ermm. Let me choose & I’ll tell you. Heh.

::Okay. & btw, u will get this as your Christmas present, birthday present.. or do you want cash or laptop?

::Erm… I think .. I want both! Hehehehe.. how about my PMR awards?

::Wat? I ‘ve bought you a new phone & u still want more cash? Don’t be so greedy darling!

::Hehehhee.. okay, u can just give me cash! even if u don’t buy me laptop, daddy is gonna buy me a laptop.. hehehehe.

::Okay, make up your mind & tell me.

& I might rob daddy's money!! & I want a HOT PINK LAPPY!! I spent too much this holiday and it's time to save! though i didn't buy many stuff at all, i spent it mostly on foooooood and th materials i bought. Oh ya, going down to kl tomorrow! Yeah, gonna meet mel, lyn, & mich. WoOoHoO.. Okay, I should’ve pack now. & im so gonna shop until I drop. I’ll get my new lappy SOON! Heh.

Some pictures for today :

Ciaos

Bye sweeties.

xoxo

My future.

I've to blog! I really miss it so much! & i've so much to say. Everything is bottle up inside my heart ever since I stop blogging & i don’t know where to start now.

Okay,let's just talk about my education. Like this year & also the year before,I was so relaxed and not bothered about my education, but now that i am older i've realized how important my education is. Like my parents always say," no matter what happens, a good education will always back you up.” i agree with this very much(: I've never worked this hard before.(just for the sake of PMR)its been great but now i have to get back on track and work my ass off. That’s what I’ve said in the previous post, i should start studying for next year. I shouldn't waste any more time and my resolution for 2009 is to study hard. No more going out having fun or whatever.See, Marilyn is taking her A levels next year , & she will be leaving kuantan on December.( to kl) sobs sobs.Michelle is going to kl to work, & mel is also studying in kl, so I’ll be all alone next year.

Why is everyone leaving me?

So,I’ve to pull my socks up ! I’ve to promise myself to do this. I’ve a deep think for a couple of weeks ago, & I just realize that I’ve been wasting my time. I've been missing so much since th dawning of 2008. so much of playing and going out everyday makes me feel bad. I guess at the end of the day, when I look back to reflect, I start to realize what a productive thing I’ve had and I do actually is nothing!

I will blog less start from now onwards. I’ll blog maybe once a month & it will be a long long post. Next year gonna be very hectic life for me cause im facing SPM nextnext year. I’ve to prepare now. I should be studying by th end of December & arrange my life for next year. Marilyn is not gonna take care of my studies, I will be missing her. Sobs. Lyn & michelle is packing now, in 1 hour , they’ll be off to Kl. Im gonna sleep alone today. Sobs.

& Now, dad is complaining about the telephone bill. He said “ Mathilda! You always be th a champion ! wakakakakaka.. this time , I’ve to pay myself! Just RM 206 , improve ady. Lol. Me & my is had a limit, maximum is RM 150, BUT I always get over it :) heeeeeeeeeheeeee.. but I think he’s angry with me this time. & I’ve to pay extra 50 bucks. & I haven get my allowances! But I’ll get it now! Hehe..

I feel better now, after blogging. I’ll blog all my feelings now! Long post soon! Ohh ya, wont be blogging for awhile, cause im goin down to kl this Saturday! Will be meeting my sisters! & mel is in Singapore now! Pls buy some cool stuff for me okay? ( if u ever read my blog ) :D

XOXO

Ps: I miss my sisters!